I’m trying to improve myself somehow
In a way trying to stop them from having a conflict with me
Prioritising their feelings, and apologising when I don’t have to
Not really into saying no to them
Don’t wanna disagree, or they’ll hate me
Bottle up my feelings, take a deep breath
But sometimes when I smile and agree with them, I wonder
What if I didn’t agree?
Will they get annoyed or scream at me?
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a different story
What if they hate me now?
Messed up again because I said no
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a story
Nonchalant Nonchalant Nonchalant on the outside
I can’t hide I can’t hide I can’t hide what’s inside
Just like a Barbie on the shelf
The outsides not what I truly felt
Don’t know what I’m really doing
The world’s a little blurry
Girls laughing I can’t fit myself in
So I just ask
What if I didn’t agree?
Will they get annoyed or scream at me?
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a different story
What if they hate me now?
Messed up again just because I said no
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a story
Nonchalant Nonchalant Nonchalant on the outside
I can’t hide I can’t hide
What if I didn’t agree?
Will they get annoyed or scream at me?
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a different story
What if they hate me now?
Messed up again just because I said no
Nonchalant on the outside
But inside’s a story
Nonchalant Nonchalant Nonchalant on the outside
I can’t hide I can’t hide I can’t hide what’s inside
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